After I posted last night’s Reflections, I received a text that arrived like a punch to my heart, and I sat and cried for a while. My neighbor wrote this: βI had to put Sammy down today; he’s no longer with us.β It was like I had lost Willy all over again. I had been watching for both of them to walk past on the sidewalk while I was sitting on the patio. My heart goes out to my neighbor. He woke this morning minus his buddy in the house with him.
Well, I got to thinking and I thought this would be as good a time as any to take a look back at my pets throughout the years. And they ranged from all shapes and forms. This won’t be a sad journey. It will hopefully send you back throughout your life and all your treasured pets you may have had by your side as you grew old.
My first memory of a pet was when I was maybe 5 or 6. We had a little bulldog, one of the ugliest types of dog there is today in my opinion. But I loved our bulldog. His name was Chippy. Somewhere, there’s a picture of me sitting his box with him across my lap. Though my memory is somewhat shaky at such a young age, I remember this dog and how much I loved him. And I remember having to give him up but the reason escapes me. I was heartbroken. From that point forward, I don’t remember any pets in the Maple Avenue house. It was only when we moved down the street to the house on the lake that the pet memories return and they are strong.
Our house was never without my dad’s favorite dog. A German Shepard. I don’t remember one at the old house on Maple, but I can’t remember a time when he didn’t have one on Haskell. And when it came time to put his favorite type of dog down, he’d have a new one sooner than later. As I write this, I have questions I never asked him. What was it about the German Shepard that so attracted him? Did he have a German Shepard on the farm growing up? This dog was Dad’s dog, without a doubt. Anyone in the family will verify. The dog was NOT an inside dog. He built a special place for the dog in his shed. Added an exterior pen for him or her. Duke and Queenie were the two names we heard over and over again. I loved the dog. So did my mom, but the dog was simply just too big to be an inside dog. Mom wanted a smaller dog for the inside and the two different breeds of dog didn’t mesh well, at least not in my mom’s eyes. However, Dad often would bring in the Shepard and we’d all give it plenty of love and affection. It was never lacking either. Tonight’s first pic is of Dad and one of his Shepards. π
I went through the phase all boys seem to go through at some point in their pre-teen years. I wanted goldfish. And it was my job to keep the bowl clean. I learned something about goldfish. They die at the drop of a hat. I couldn’t keep goldfish. Maybe I wasn’t doing the job I was supposed to be doing. Who knows. But whatever, my fish died one after another. I’d go to Schultz Bros Five and Dime to pick out another couple, bring them home in a bag, drop them into the bowl and it was merely How long before these guys end up floating? From there, I wanted a canary. I really wanted a parakeet and I’m not sure why Mom pushed for the canary. It might have been that canaries were less noisy. Maybe they were cheaper. I don’t remember. In any case, I spent my snow shoveling money and bought a cage and food and got myself my first yellow canary. I’d throw the towel over the cage hanging on its stand each night so he’d sleep. I think I might have gone through three canaries in my teen years. They, too, died all too often. Would go to bed one night and the next morning, I’d take the towel off they’d be on their back. Reminds me of an opening scene in Poltergeist. I was a little sad, yes, but it was never an emotion that lingered throughout the day and for days later.
Our grandmother bought a dog for the family. She wanted to do something nice for us since she was living there. He was brown and smaller. I can’t remember the breed or what we called him. He was awesome. However, he was an Energizer dog. This guy had more energy than any dog we’d ever seen. He’d come in from outside and he’d race around the house as opposed to just coming in and finding a place to rest. It got too bad as he’d race across laps of my grandmother and mother and anyone else. If you were in his path, you needed to simply prepare for the lightning bolt to shoot through. Finally, they made the decision to sell him and they did so to a family on a farm where his energy could be allowed to exist. I remember stopping at that farm shortly after selling him and while everyone else got out of the car to go see him, I stretched out in the back seat and cried my eyes out. I just couldn’t handle seeing the dog I loved who was no longer ours. That was my first time I really remember the pain of losing an animal, even though he was still alive.
My dad’s sisters all had chihuahuas. Oh, and they overfed the poor little guys. Seriously. They always looked like they were pin cushions. Well, Mom wanted a chihuahua. And so, we got one. We called him Snoopy. I LOVED THIS DOG. He was just a little runt, as that breed usually is. But he was not overfed. He was simply a delightful little guy. And he loved going for a ride in the car. When I’d go to pick up Mom at the bank at the end of her workday, I’d yell to Snoopy, “Hey Snoopy! Wanna go for a ride?” And he’d come tearing from wherever he was and beat me to the door. Upon opening the door, he’d immediately run down the porch and the steps and head right to my driver’s side of my car. As I’d drive, he’d sit with his back legs on my leg and his front legs on my left arm or the window. And when Mom would come to the car, he’d greet her with all his kisses. She loved seeing him in the car at day’s end too. The time came, however, where Mom wanted a dog that she could consider “her” dog. And so she got another chihuahua. This time, Mom named her Princess. And she looked like a little miniature fawn. (she can be seen in the second pic tonight lying next to me on the couch….I think that pic was from the mid 70s) And she was truly Mom’s dog. If Mom sat down, Princess would follow her right into the chair. Mom took up crocheting in her cancer years, and Princess would manage to squeeze in next to Mom in the rocker as she did her crafting. In Mom’s final months when she was not lucid at all, but rather comatose in an upright position, it would kill me to see Princess sitting on her lap but getting no love because Mom wasn’t moving her limbs at that point. And once Mom died, Princess was simply lost.
I went to college and the next animal I would fall in love with would be the cat where I ended up living my first semester off campus. The woman who owned the house and was still living inside it owned a cat. And this cat, for whatever reason, took a liking to me. I was NOT a cat person at all. However, before that semester ended, that cat worked his way into my heart. And I had become a convert.
Once I arrived in Minnesota, I lived in Eagan for my first year while teaching at RHS. A high school friend of mine was living in Burnsville and she had called, indicating a few kittens that were abandoned in her neighborhood and wondered if I would like one. I didn’t think this one through and I aid YES. I remember coming home from school one day, only to find the kitty had the entire roll of toilet paper off the dispenser and covering the bathroom floor. At night, it insisted on being in my bed with me. Honestly, I had no business being a pet owner yet. Especially of a pet I knew little about. Dogs? That was another thing, but cats I had yet figured out. I talked my friend into taking the kitty back.
In years 2-8, I was living with a fellow teacher and a stray cat entered the neighborhood. We gave it a home in our home. He looked like he had been in a few fights and we felt sorry for him. We called him Brisbane. I have no recollection where that name came from. My roomie kept him when I moved out because the next place I was moving to wasn’t accepting animals.
And that would be it until about 1998. I moved into a relationship with someone who had two ferrets and a cat. The ferrets took me a while to stuff my feminine side out of sight. The cat, however, was a total delight. In the years ahead, I’d receive a ferret as a gift from this person for my birthday. By then, I thought they were precious…and they were. Her name was Samantha and I called her Sam. She was a total delight. And eventually I became keeper of Kitty. The two of them played but never viciously. Kitty eventually got sick and my friend took her to the vet on the day I was staging the Homecoming Coronation Pep Fest. As I was walking to the podium that Friday, I received a text from my friend who was on the way with Kitty to the vet. The text read, “Kitty says she loves you and goodbye.” I was 60 seconds from starting the pep fest. It took every ounce of energy in me to refrain from breaking down. The next summer, I had to deal with Sam dying. Ferrets only live about 7-8 years. She had made it to 7. Her final hours were terrible and I took her in to have her put out of her misery. That was just terrible. I thought then it was the hardest thing I’d ever done.
Then along came Willy in 2010. You know the rest of that story. I still miss him terribly and when I got word that Sammy had been put down yesterday afternoon, I instantly began to cry aloud, speaking to no one but still lamenting the loss of a dog I had fallen in love with. Pets are so wonderful, but the end for them is about as bad as it gets. I’ve said it before…losing Mom and Dad wasn’t as hard. The reason is I didn’t have any control over Mom and Dad’s deaths. However, I was the one calling the shots with Willy. Say what you want…I felt a sense of guilt being the person who decided to have Willy’s existence end. I know I was doing the best thing for my little buddy. I know I was. But at the time…damn, it was so hard to be a good dad for him. And watching them take him from my car because Covid kept me from going in…sadly, it’s a sight I’ll never quite forget. It still brings tears to my eyes to recall.
I am sure today was a long day for my neighbor. I wish his daughter would have come by with her fiancΓ© but I suppose she has her life too. Will he get another dog? Dunno. I know it brings the same question to the surface for me. And it’s a question i continue to ask myself. I am sure I will for some time. Until I end up getting another cat. LOL
Ok. That’s it. Another Guess edition done. Don’t forget…tomorrow night, I’ll be home someplace between 9 and 10. I’ll likely write some of this during the day, but I will want to wait and finish it AFTER track. So, it will come, but it will be late again. Got it? Ok π
The Inspirational Quote of the Night: “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best time is now.” – Chinese Proverb
G’Night!